Past

It should be simple. Just let it go. Forget about all the things that made you cry at night, that spun around your brain for days and weeks, not letting you sleep. Conscious is heavy, making you feel guilty about all the things you could've done but haven't. Dark thoughts spin through your mind making you feel dizzy and throwing anguish into your soul. Can you still do it? Should you go through a new path? Something different this time, something that could lead you in the right direction, where you really want to be. But the problem we all have, that stops us from going forward, is doubt. We don't want to forge a new and unknown path, because we really want to stay right where we are. And why wouldn't we? It's safe and we know what we should fear, what we should dodge, how to protect ourselves. Fear of being hurt is unreasonable but necessary. We all have a ripped and scared soul, some wounds are so deep that we are too afraid to look into that ourselves, afraid of what we can find out about our own demons. If we just pretend they're not there, they'll go away. How we crave that innocence, that thought we implant in our brains that everything is as it should be. We are never the same, nor we need to be. How can we find peace in this world full of chaos if we don't even know what chaos is? We have to live it, get lost in it so that we can cherish what we really miss. Ourselves.